How things have changed!

January 2, 2019

Well it's been a really long time since I've blogged but it's still here and it's kind of fun to look back and read my previous posts.  I've always been one to keep a diary and now I remember why.  So it's January and time for all those new beginnings etc....I haven't blogged in 7 years so just writing this feels like a new beginning.  I thought I'd come back and write about goals and New Year's resolutions and the like but I feel like this needs to be a catch-up post, like my last 7 years of life in fast forward.  So here are the last 7 years of my life condensed. 

1.  I got married October 20, 2018.  His name is Trevor, it's been a roller coaster ride of a relationship but I love him beyond measure so here we are. 

2.  We bought a house in 2017 and have 2 dogs that we adopted from the SPCA, Bingo, and Riley.   I love my house and my dogs!

3.  I'm an Educational Diagnostician.  I went back to school, again and got certified to be a diagnostician so I could get out of the classroom.  I was burned out, on the adults, not the kids.  So now I have an office and I still get to help save the world but just in a different capacity.  Also, I get paid more and I can pee whenever I want!

4.  We moved!  I no longer call Houston my home.  Now I live in Oyster Creek, Texas.  It's about an hour south of Houston on 288, almost to the beach.  Seriously, I live 5 minutes from the beach.  Also, I have a lake behind my house.  Right now, I'm sitting in my office looking out the 3 windows at a lake.  It's kind of picturesque!

5.  I'm still fat!  Surprise, I still haven't lost weight.  I mean, I have in the past 7 years but it's still a roller coaster and hasn't gotten any easier. 

Well there you go, 7 years of my life in 5 bulletin points!  There's been a lot more in between but those are the BIG highlights.  Now I'm off to do some work I've been putting off for the past 1.5 weeks. 

Half way point

I'm half way done with my 21 My Fit Foods challenge.  I'm not gonna lie I have cheated.  Not so much with the food but with the drinking.  I like drinking, and I don't mean getting hammered.  I like having a glass of wine sometimes.  So that has been my biggest problem is social events that have alcohol, but I've lost another lb. so I'm down a total of 9 lbs.  The best part is that people have started to notice.  Always a motivating factor.  This week I need to figure out how to start excercising.   Definitely a challenge but I do have a lot more energy so hopefully I can persuade myself.  :)

My Fit Foods

I've been doing the My Fit Foods (MFF) challenge for 3 days now.  Today is the beginning of my 4th day.  So far it's been going pretty well.  There have been some downs such as the liver cleanse making me feel sick the first 2 days but I solved that by adding water to it and drinking it in 3 gulps instead of 1.  Then it has been hard not being able to eat whatever I want.  The food is great but I still want to eat bad stuff, so far I've been able to hold off.  I also get a "cheat" meal on Saturday night so hopefully that will help those cravings.  The portions are pretty small but really filling so mostly I'm just grappling with my mental eating state not my physical one.  The best part is I'm down 8lbs already.  That's in just 3 days so I can't wait to see what happens in 21 days.  I definitely think MFF is going to keep being part of my daily life after this challenge.  :)

Hello Old Friend!

My poor neglected blog.  Well I'm back and on the road to weight loss success once again or about to be anyway.  So to help me keep things in perspective, let me list the reasons I need to lose weight. 

1.  My pant size.
2.  I'm currently using a hair tie to button my pants.  Although ingenious a bit ridic!
3.  I feel like I'm drowing in fat and boob. 
4.  I'm beginning to feel self concious about sitting in chairs and small areas. 
5.  My knee hurts a lot most of the time. 
6.  I'm tired ALL THE TIME!
7.  My feet hurt a lot. 
8.  I feel gross. 
9.  My stomach is too big. 
10.  I have high cholesterol.
11.  People have started telling me I need to lose weight. 
12.  I don't want to see people I haven't seen in a long time because I don't want them to think about how "big" I've gotten. 
13.  I don't like myself at this size. 
14.  I feel ugly and fat. 
15.  I want to hide in my apt. in sweat pants. 
16.  My cheeks are over taking my face. 
17.  I now know what it's like to have a muffin top and I don't like it.
18.  I'm self concious in large spaces and places. 
19.  I want to be healthy.
20.  I want to live a long happy life. 

Today, after school I'm going to my fit foods for a consultation.  With that I hope I'll get more energy and then be able to go to the gym.  Put those 2 things together and hopefully this weight will come off.  Here we go again!!!!

Maybe I'm just supposed to be fat

I've really been feeling like that lately. Maybe I'll never lose weight and I should just learn to embrace myself as I am. I also suspect that I'm going to be hot all the time (thanks antidepressants). I just have a really hard time getting to the gym and not eating a whole container of fat free ranch dip. I think since I've switched antidepressants some of that has started to taper off but I still can't get to the gym. Also I'll do good one week and the next it's like I abandon ship. Last night I had a friend tell me that she spent the same $200 4 times. I feel like I do that with my extra points or my oops I can't cheat a little bit. I keep using that same cheat 5 times, which isn't helping on the scale.

First world problem....sigh!

My poor neglected blog

I've definitely fallen off the blogging wagon but this coming week is Spring Break and a perfect week to blog to my hearts content. :)

Turning 30

Turning 30 was amazingly awesome. I really don't think I've ever had a better birthday. I felt completely totally loved and it lasted for 2 weeks. The day of my actual birthday I got up and felt really sore, thanks to my kickboxing class the night before. :) At work everyone from teachers, students, administrators, to parents wished me a happy birthday. My kids brought me presents and one mom brought cupcakes for our class. It was a great day!
After that I headed home and my dad showed up to grill steaks and drink martinis. I got tons of phone calls, emails, facebook messages and Christina sent me 30 birthday cards. Then it was off to New Orleans with Christina. My mom paid for our hotel so we got to stay in the Sheraton....very nice. To top it all of my little brother surprised me, literally by jumping out as I was coming out of the bathroom. I had a great time in New Orleans with Christina and my brother. They really made me feel super special the whole weekend and I know I'll never forget this trip.
Then a week later I got to celebrate again with my super awesome Karoake party thrown by Carmela. My mom even came to town. The party was super fun and lots of people showed up which again reminded me of how loved I really am. It's not that I don't know this but sometimes I forget, I'm human right. The best part was the amazing cake Carmela made by hand for me. It was amazing and everything I've ever wanted in a cake. It definitely was a turning 30 cake. I'm still so impressed that she made such a great cake, not that I didn't think she could but it was pretty intricate. It also tasted wonderful.
Before I had turned 30 I was kind of depressed about it and I really wanted to lose a bunch of weight so I could impress people and I wanted to be healthier. The losing a whole bunch of weight didn't work out as well as I had hoped but my friends and family made me feel so loved that it didn't even matter. I will never forget this birthday and I hope that everyone who made everything happen know how much I appreciate them and love them. I only hope that I can make them feel as special as I did this birthday. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!