lock down

I highly doubt that anyone actually reads my blog, and I'm okay with that. However, because I am applying to teach internationally I have to make my blog private. I don't want people putting my name in google and comin up with this blog. Really, I dont think there is anything inappropriate or scandalous but I'd rather be safe than sorry. So if anyone is lurking out there and reads it and wants to keep reading it then just send me a message and Ill add u to the list. I totally lurk on tons of other blogs mostly of people i don't even know, so really I'll be flattered more than anything.

I LOVE....

I probably should have done this yesterday since it was Valentine's day and that would make more sense, however, my time machine is broken so today will have to be the lucky day. Here are some things I love in no particular order:

my family
my friends
God
Jesus
Spain
Spanish
my students
my car
my ipod
spanish
Wii
hummus
yoga
peanut butter
books
reading
blogging
travelling
sunflowers
my bed
wine
sushi
learning
school


There's probably alot more stuff I love but that's it for now.

Oh Valentine's Day!

Valentine's Day is fast approaching and it stinks. I know that I'm supposed to be all positive and not be a negative Nelly about it but really it's super annoying to be reminded every year that I'm alone. I know this isn't the worst thing possible in life that could possibly happen but after a while you get a little tired of it. I know I'm single, I know I have absolutely zero love interests right now, I don't need the giant flower and crazy balloon maze that I have to walk through at the grocery store to remind me. I think the thing that worries me the most is that what if this is as good as it gets? I like my life, it's not a bad life but I dont want to spend the rest of my life hugging my pillow in my sleep. That's just a lil sad. I'm sure some people will say oh don't worry you're only 28 and while that is true a small part of me can't help but worry that 28 will turn into 38 and then 48 then 58 then 68 and then 78 and then 88 and Ill be chilling in the retirement home with nobody next to me and no visits from kids and grandkids. That is the part that scares me the most. I also relize that I can have kids without a husband but really I don't want to choose to be a single mom. I know lots of single moms and they are amazing people but I want to be able to share all those things with someone else. I just want someone to hold my hand, that's all. The End.

Working out: Day 1

Today was my first day back to the gym, I wish i could add after a 2 week vacation but sadly I can't even remember the last time I went to the gym. But, hey I got there today, although Carmela did have to send me a motivational email and I had to read why people don't go the gym by Jillian Michaels I still went. It was even raining and I was sooooo tired. But, I did it and now I feel really good. I walked on the treadmill for 35 minutes and even though it may not have been the most intense of workouts but again, this is day one. Now if I can just keep this up. :)

and I gained .8lbs

Today I had my WW meeting and I'm not gonna lie I went in expecting to see a gain, however, I was hoping that I wouldn't. In an effort to not let this totally derail me I need to figure out what happened, accept it and then move on. So last week i had lost 4.8lbs. in one week. That is super crazy for me I've never in all of my WW efforts had a loss that big in one week. So that may have played a small, miniscule part in my gain. However, lets be honest, that probably is the smallest part of it. So here's some things that may have contributed to this gain. 1. I drank wine this week. 2. I ate chili dogs. 3. I ate chalupas and margaritas. 4. I took Thursday off from WW. Well not completely but enough. 5. I ate lots of salty stuff.
So some things I've learned for this week. 1. I need to work out, any type of activity is better than none. 2. I need to track everyday and make an effort everyday. 3. I need to cut back on the alcohol. 4. I need to move on after mistakes and just keep goin. Here's to a loss next week. :)

I <3 day weekends!

I love three day weeekends. I don't know if there is a better invention in the world. I love them more than I love holiday weekends, I do realize this is a holiday weekend but it's not a holiday that my family celebrates. Don't get me wrong we all think Martin Luther King Jr. was a great man and deserving of his own holiday but we don't celebrate in the sense of getting together and eating. Since we don't do anything for the holiday that means i just get 3 days to do whatever I want, with no expectations or concerns. I get to stay up late and sleep in. I love sleeping in even if for me it just means until 7:30 am. I think the thing I like most about all this is the pure and simple FREEDOM! I dont have to be anywhere or do anything. It is also gives me ample time for mindless activities like watching movies, blogging, facebooking and various other things.

Just blogging because I can

I don't have anything super specific to blog about today. I just felt like doing a lil blogging so alas that's what I'm doing. Here's some things that are going on right now. My students and I are in the midst of the evil Stanford test and unfortunately it's just as evil as all the years before. I think next year I'm really gonna try to teach Pre-k cause all this testing is getting to be too much. I mean the board just passed a measure where if your test scores are low for three years they can fire you. It's very frustrating for me as a teacher because 1. all they're taking into account is how my kids do an a standardized, developmentally inappropriate test that's administered in January. Also the test is supposed to be used to determine which students are gifted and talented, not which kids are on grade level. It also frustrates me because my livelihood is now dependent upon small children whom most of can't even pee in the toilet, seriously our bathroom floor is always covered in pee. Common sense tells me that it's super ridiculous. I sometimes wonder what the people who make all these decisions are thinking, I mean all I can picture is some type of wildlife sitting around in a meeting picking ticks off of each other.
Now don't get me wrong I know there are teachers out there who do not do their jobs. I'm not saying those teachers should be allowed to keep teaching and I'm not saying that I shouldnt be evaluated every year. I am however, saying that maybe instead of using one single test we could look at overall growth over the whole year. Maybe a developmentally appropriate test should be given at the beginning of the year and then at the end of the year. Then you can tell me if I'm a bad teacher or not.