Thursday, June 9, 2011

A lil out of control

I've been feeling a bit out of control these past couple days. I just can't seem to get my head in the game so to speak. I'm not really sure what it is but it probably has to do with the start of my summer vacation. Although I love summer it's an unstructured time for me. This is good in the sense of me being able to do whatever I want when I want to but in other ways I need that regimented schedule. It keeps me from eating all day and it also limits what I can eat since I only have access to the food I bring to work.
On the other hand all this free time allows more gym time right? Well that would be the case if I would actually go to the gym. I think in order to feel more in control I'm going to have to come up with a flexible summer schedule. Hopefully this will help with the out of control feeling and help me to quit eating everything.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

The problem with goals....

is that when you don't reach them then you're all disappointed. So I just have no goals in life therefore I have no disappointments. Okay that's all a lie, of course I have goals and with or without them I definitely have disappointments. It's all those disappointments that teach us so many things and help us navigate life.
Sadly though I didn't reach my previous goal well at least not that next week. Instead of losing .7lbs I gained .4lbs. In retrospect though I had a really tough week that week with all kinds of food activities and although I might not have done as well as I could have I still did better than I would have before. I'm not gonna lie I was pretty mad about it and I really wanted to just say to hell with it all, who cares if I'm fat. But really I care if I'm fat, it's not like I'm doing this for anyone else. So I put on my big girl panties (meaning my older, wiser panties, not actual larger in size) and got back to work.
You know what happened the next week???? I gained again! Just kidding, I mean that could have happened but thank goodness it didn't cause that would have been too rough. I lost 3.8lbs. Then the next week I lost 3 lbs. So I've reached my 5% goal and am down 17 lbs. Weight Watchers online has also yelled at me twice for losing too fast. Yay!!
Now today I'm back to my weigh in day and I'm not feeling particularly confident about my weight loss today but that's okay because even if I'm up or stay the same I can always get back on. That is really what this is all about. Picking yourself up, dusting yourself off and getting back in the game.