Half way point

I'm half way done with my 21 My Fit Foods challenge.  I'm not gonna lie I have cheated.  Not so much with the food but with the drinking.  I like drinking, and I don't mean getting hammered.  I like having a glass of wine sometimes.  So that has been my biggest problem is social events that have alcohol, but I've lost another lb. so I'm down a total of 9 lbs.  The best part is that people have started to notice.  Always a motivating factor.  This week I need to figure out how to start excercising.   Definitely a challenge but I do have a lot more energy so hopefully I can persuade myself.  :)

My Fit Foods

I've been doing the My Fit Foods (MFF) challenge for 3 days now.  Today is the beginning of my 4th day.  So far it's been going pretty well.  There have been some downs such as the liver cleanse making me feel sick the first 2 days but I solved that by adding water to it and drinking it in 3 gulps instead of 1.  Then it has been hard not being able to eat whatever I want.  The food is great but I still want to eat bad stuff, so far I've been able to hold off.  I also get a "cheat" meal on Saturday night so hopefully that will help those cravings.  The portions are pretty small but really filling so mostly I'm just grappling with my mental eating state not my physical one.  The best part is I'm down 8lbs already.  That's in just 3 days so I can't wait to see what happens in 21 days.  I definitely think MFF is going to keep being part of my daily life after this challenge.  :)

Hello Old Friend!

My poor neglected blog.  Well I'm back and on the road to weight loss success once again or about to be anyway.  So to help me keep things in perspective, let me list the reasons I need to lose weight. 

1.  My pant size.
2.  I'm currently using a hair tie to button my pants.  Although ingenious a bit ridic!
3.  I feel like I'm drowing in fat and boob. 
4.  I'm beginning to feel self concious about sitting in chairs and small areas. 
5.  My knee hurts a lot most of the time. 
6.  I'm tired ALL THE TIME!
7.  My feet hurt a lot. 
8.  I feel gross. 
9.  My stomach is too big. 
10.  I have high cholesterol.
11.  People have started telling me I need to lose weight. 
12.  I don't want to see people I haven't seen in a long time because I don't want them to think about how "big" I've gotten. 
13.  I don't like myself at this size. 
14.  I feel ugly and fat. 
15.  I want to hide in my apt. in sweat pants. 
16.  My cheeks are over taking my face. 
17.  I now know what it's like to have a muffin top and I don't like it.
18.  I'm self concious in large spaces and places. 
19.  I want to be healthy.
20.  I want to live a long happy life. 

Today, after school I'm going to my fit foods for a consultation.  With that I hope I'll get more energy and then be able to go to the gym.  Put those 2 things together and hopefully this weight will come off.  Here we go again!!!!

Maybe I'm just supposed to be fat

I've really been feeling like that lately. Maybe I'll never lose weight and I should just learn to embrace myself as I am. I also suspect that I'm going to be hot all the time (thanks antidepressants). I just have a really hard time getting to the gym and not eating a whole container of fat free ranch dip. I think since I've switched antidepressants some of that has started to taper off but I still can't get to the gym. Also I'll do good one week and the next it's like I abandon ship. Last night I had a friend tell me that she spent the same $200 4 times. I feel like I do that with my extra points or my oops I can't cheat a little bit. I keep using that same cheat 5 times, which isn't helping on the scale.

First world problem....sigh!

My poor neglected blog

I've definitely fallen off the blogging wagon but this coming week is Spring Break and a perfect week to blog to my hearts content. :)