Success!!!

I actually accomplished two of my "If I dos" from my previous post and I do feel a lot better. I also feel great because I went to zumba tonight. It's a great workout and I'm getting better and better at it. I wish I could bottle up the sense of accomplishment I feel after a good workout so then on days when I'm not motivated I could take a whiff and get my bottom to the gym. I also like how working out makes me feel stronger and healthier. I'm totally not the most graceful at zumba, I have a limited amount of rhythm and apparently my hips only shake sexily when I'm intoxicated. Despite all that I feel good when I'm doing it because I know that I'm doing something good for me, I'm taking the time to take care of myself and that is a nice feeling.
I've also discovered that I love swimming. It's such a great summer exercise. Usually during the day no one is at my pool so I'm all alone with just my thoughts, my goggles and a dead hermit crab without it's shell. Well that last part only happened yesterday. I like being outside and in the sun but not sweating to death. I also like to be able to get lost in my thoughts as I swim my laps. Swimming is also a great all over body exercise and it doesn't put any pressure on my joints, don't have to worry about my knee while swimming.

If I had....

If I had.....taken the last 8 months of my weight loss journey seriously there would be less of me.

If I had.....gone and worked out yesterday I wouldn't feel so fat today.

If I had....said no to 2 pieces of cake, 3 mini cupcakes and a brownie, the scale wouldn't be up today.

If I had....gone to Weight Watchers last week I would have been more on track this week.

I totally copied this format from another blog that I read but I really like it. Basically to sum it up I need to stop agonizing over all the"If i hads" and start focusing on the "If I dos" then I'll probably be more successful. So If I do....

go to the gym 3 times a week I'll relieve stress.
go to Weight Watchers meetings every week, it'll be easier to stay on plan.
track all my food I'll be more likely to stay within my points.
pick myself and dust myself off when I fall off the wagon I'll be a healthier happier me!

I think the "If I dos" sound much better than the "If I hads".

Cutting the Bull*$#@!

I copied that from another blog but it's pretty spot on so I figured I could borrow. I don't even know where to begin. Hmmm let's begin with the insomnia. I can't sleep, when I do fall asleep I wake up every couple hours. I'm tired all day long. It's not fun. Next, the depression, this week has been a particularly depressing week. There's not really a specific reason why just things piling up. I have decided that I need to stop letting other peoples actions and reactions affect me. Life is way to short to walk around being depressed. I also got my psychiatrist to give me some sleeping pills and up my antidepressants. Hopefully this will help work most of this out. I have actually been eating within my points the past couple days although i haven't been working out very much. I attribute the lack of exercise to my exhaustion from my inability to sleep so hopefully that will also work it's self out. Finally, I'm going to College Station this weekend so I think getting out of town will give me a mini vaca. yay!!!